Tuesday, August 27, 2013

first day of school

wow.  we're here.  we made it.  jb at school.  real school.

kindergarten!  

it's a little surreal, but boy, is it time.  the kid is ready, has been ready, i've been more than ready.

we've had a rough couple of months.  i think with jb and dyl spending every moment together, there's been more fighting, teasing, tattling and whining than what - i dunno - i guess my cup runneth over!  jack, too!

to kick-off the year, jb's school hosted a back-to-school picnic.  a few days later was kindergarten roll-in, where they take two kiddos at a time, let them see the classrooms, play with the toys, get comfortable, really, and then perform a few "tests" to see where each child is at; fine & gross motor, physical movements and then asking them some simple questions.  i was busy filling out a packet of papers, but i couldn't help but listen when they asked who lived at home.  ummm, dada and mama, duey, baby tess, beanie.  and do you have any pets?  ummm, no.  but we do have a bulldog named beanie.  she's white and has polkadots.  she sleeps a lot.  so cute.  i can only imagine all the answers they get to that question.


roll-in day
i'm eager to see how much closer his head is to that sign at the end of the year...

the following week, we found out which class jb ended up in (there are 3 kindergarten classes) and on wednesday was kindergarten orientation.  we were able to visit his room, see his cubby and play with some of the toys.  jb went straight for the wooden blocks, building towers and ramps.  then, he found the wooden pieces & marbles.  fun!  the dude loves to build!
had to include a picture of myself.  
i hope to have reduced fine lines by end of year... here's to wishful thinking!

the very next day was the actual first day of school.  and because i was taking jackie to all the prior events, ben was the one to bring him on this day.  i wanted to be sad about it, but we had many visits together.  if i had been thinking, i would have taken pictures the night before.  or maybe after his first day.  

my jackie.  
not too much of a morning person.
(note to self: include this picture in the senior slideshow and/or yearbook)
these two.  
peas in a pod!
ok, finally some smiles!

dylan.  we changed schools and started her in a more rigid program.  she was so excited, especially since learning we knew a friend in her class!  she is currently going two days a week, but as i type this out, i'm having second thoughts.  jackie was planning to ride the bus, giving me a little breathing room between drop-off times, but he has since changed his mind.  i'm fine with driving him, but here are my dilemmas:  they both start at the same time, 8:30; she's done at 11:30; he's done an hour later.  doesn't give me much time at home, and today, after being in my rig half the morning, waking tess twice, ugh, i'm already over it!  i'm feeling bad about pulling her, but she is only three and a half.  i think next year, when he's in school all day, i could justify the busy morning if i had a quiet afternoon to look forward to...

ben called me after he left a very comfortable jackie.  he said as soon as the kiddos put their bags away, slipped on their inside shoes and washed their hands, they got to work cutting veggies.
thursday, soup day!  

all the kiddos had their own cutting board with veggie cutter.  super-cute.  after a few minutes, jb told him:  dad, GO!  piece of cake, right?!  well...


i assumed the second day, he'd tell me to drop him off a block away!  ha!  well, it was a little more serious.  as much as i was excited that he was going to school, i was feeling guilty.  on this day, it hit me.  seeing his fears, his uneasiness, it tugged at my heart.  tears welled in his eyes as he looked up at me, quietly pleading with me to stay.  

i had tess in my arms, dyl's arms wrapped around my leg, jackie's arms around my neck!  i stayed composed as he was unraveling, but he held it together during the coat hang up, the shoe changing, the lunchbox station.  he made it to the circle rug, and i waved as i slipped out the door - but not before seeing him drop his head into his hands.  

i couldn't stop the tears as i walked down the long hallway.  i think what really got me was the line of mothers, walking in almost perfectly spaced fashioned, down the hallway and up the stairs.  alone.  no little 5-6 year old buddies with them.  it hit home:  

this little dude is now a kindergartener!
and, he's ready.


zoo & a work party

the owner of ben's company is a pretty smart man.  toward the end of the party, i wandered over to thank him for having such a fun gathering - to have a company party, at the zoo of all places, with a plethora of kid-focused games including prizes, i mean, huge hit for my family, in particular.  he replied that he thought it was better than doing a holiday party where the focus is around an open bar.  ha!  and to be honest, it wasn't just the kiddos that had a great time.



 super-serious face painting.
 red spider & web for jb and a pink dinosaur for dyl.
the sun & flowers were an afterthought.
 so many games!  
plinko was their favorite.

dyl & caleb.  currently, he works with ben, and also, he is living in the studio while his house is being built.  dylan tells me daily that "i like caweb" and she includes him in her prayers and thoughts at night, along with our old friend sean.  we're gonna have to watch this one - three and a half, and she's always boy-crazy.  caleb is mid-20s and not at all interested in kids, practically his words exactly.  slowly but surely, she's breaking him...


 

super-fun party!

Saturday, August 17, 2013

hatcher pass, gold mint trail

the first of august, and we're still playing in the mountains - or rather, we're still playing in the mountains with NO rain!  i really can't stress how incredibly-super-awesome and wonderfully-fantastic this summer has been.  i may not even complain of the wind storms this winter!  ok, remind me of that statement in another month or two...

we had some friends along for this hike.  soon-to-be-neighbor friends, in fact.  avery & jack were in gymnastics together, and dylan & lincoln are about a year apart and get along like lifelong friends.  and bonus for me; it's great making friends with other stay-at-home mamas.  gramma d & tess tagged along too - no woman left behind.

more hatcher pass adventures.  gold mint trail this time.  flat trails to walk, tall trees to climb, bridges to toss in rocks & sticks, wildflowers for me to capture, snoozing babe to admire.


 the miebs' and the craig's breed some power horses!

for some, even the best of times can end in sadness...
...but tomorrow brings the promise of a fresh start.

more {dry!} august adventures to come...

Friday, August 16, 2013

flashback.

i can't help myself.



anchorage parks

there are some super-fun parks, popping up around anchorage... more like playscapes, i think is what they're calling them.  in fact, just this past week, wasilla lake got a park similar to the fun one in anchorage at westchester lagoon.  fun swings that adults can (should?) ride on or like the large "ladybug" swing where the kids can sit (lay) together.  ok, and there's room for mom, too.  

so on this beautiful blue-skied day, we hit up two parks: westchester lagoon and russian jack springs park.  and oh, whatta treat to have the big guy along, as well!  



the "ladybug" swing (because it's red & black!)


 russian jack springs
 dear baby tess, next summer's gonna be a blast.  
promise.


Thursday, August 8, 2013

four months


tess is 4 months old.  actually, she's nearly FIVE months old - whew!  time sure flies when babies are happy.  we've had so much fun these past few months.  she's turned into this giggly, wiggly, drooly little (chubby) baby girl!  

she can't keep her hands, fists, fingers, thumbs outta her mouf!  poor thing.  she sprouted a tooth a few weeks back; she rolled over this past tuesday night, and she's tasted her first few tablespoons of rice cereal.  i kinda forgot how much they grow and change in this first year.  so many milestones in such a short amount of time.    


i'm sure i've said it 1,000 times, but she loves her brother dearly.  and, that's not to say she doesn't love her big sis, it's just that, well, dyl is three.  and, she's a tad nuts.  and, she doesn't know when to calm down; in her face, poking, being too loud, too crazy, and well, baby t lets her know to move it along!  i know that before long, these two stunners will be tag-teaming on big bro, but until then, it's the brown-haired beauties against the red.


 great grandma & tess
not a fan of the rice cereal, just yet.

tess loves her little einstein exersaucer.  she spend time jumping, staring at the many colorful hanging rings and hitting the music buttons.  she also has an activity mat to lay on, roll over on and drool all over.  she's already a mover, too - i find her spun 180 degrees or even off the mat at times.  of all my babies, she's been super-happy during tummy time.  it's fun to see the similarities and compare differences!  they definitely look like siblings, but they are their own special being.  and, i can't believe how much i love them all.  my heart is overflowing.

 

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

sticks & stones

i've slowly started opening up to people: my mom has breast cancer.  every time those words leave my mouth, i'm stunned - just like those receiving my information.  i told a close friend today, and she had no words - just red-rimmed eyes that quickly filled with tears.  she's one of my closest friends, i've seen her every week since we all found out, and yet, i just couldn't tell her.  maybe i was afraid to hurt someone with these simple words.  and how ironic, we're brought up singing

sticks and stones may break my bones
but words will never hurt me

and now, that couldn't be further from the truth.  i want to be able to share, to have someone to lean on, but now i see how it pains people.  i can see myself relying more on these keys than the walking-talking.  for me, it's always been easier this way.

we know more but not much.  MRI last week.  her other side is now suspect and a second biopsy was done on monday morning.  awaiting results.  the weeks fill up with appointments and call-backs from doctor's offices.  my head is swimming and spinning.

this past weekend, i spoke to my oldest and dearest friend from my school days.  his mom battled and won, just a few years back.  he shared a quote that i'm sure will become my mantra through this journey

panic in sequential order    

right?!  every time my mind starts to race and worry and freak out about events that have yet to occur, i repeat this.  (usually followed by prayer!)  one day at a time.  maybe i should back it up to one hour at a time...